Devastated. Crushed. Disappointed. That's just the tip of the iceberg of how I feel today.
Yesterday, I received a call from my orthopedic's office- the MRI shows a stress fracture on the second metatarsal of my right foot. Six weeks of no weight-bearing activity; no running, no walking, no driving; basically, total immobilization of my foot.
I don't know much about the prognosis- only that right now I'm using crutches and will be for the foreseeable future. I have an appointment with the orthopedic doctor on Monday and hopefully I'll know more then. I don't know if I'll be able to swim or bike or really do any activity at all in the next six weeks.
What I do know is this- all my races (Akron, The Great Race, Rugged Maniac, Runner's World Half Festival, Crawlin' Crab) from now until the first week of November are out. I will not be able to participate in them. I don't know about Wine & Dine or WDW Marathon Weekend. By the time my foot is healed, I'll have eight weeks until the Goofy Challenge- not quite enough time to build up to marathon distance from zero. And Wine & Dine is only seven weeks away; six of which I'll be laid up.
I know this isn't life threatening. I know this could be a lot worse. I know it's just six weeks.
But today, right now, it feels pretty damn devastating.
While there are a lot of things I'm upset about, what hurts the most is that my Dad is coming to Disney to run his first half at Wine & Dine and his first full at the WDW Marathon with me. Now I don't know if I'll be able to do them with him. My heart is just broken.
Running is central to my life. It's what keeps me sane, keeps me fit, and makes me happy. I'm a runner.
But who am I if I can't run?
My dear readers, I'm taking a little break this weekend to reflect and recharge. No social media, no blogging. Just some time with my love, my puppy, and myself. I want to sulk, cry it out, get angry- and then I want to move on. I won't let this set me back but I've got to confront it head-on first. So, I promise I'll be back on Monday with a little dose of accountability and then I'll be back later in the week with the Divas race recap. In the meantime, check out Jen's awesome recap.
Please run some miles for me this weekend- it should be beautiful weather :-)